Scare Your Soul (SYS) is an organization that helps people find growth and happiness by taking small (or big) acts of courage in their daily lives. In essence, it’s a courage movement. Participation is free and a variety of challenges are offered, so check it out! (Incidentally, I’m an ambassador). A few weeks ago I received the weekly email setting up the challenge of the week: write a love letter to someone. Ideally, someone it would be scary to write to.
I knew right away that I wanted to write to my dad. We used to be tight, really tight. But somehow life and conflict and resentment and hurt and anger got in the way and created some pretty deep grooves in the terrain of our relationship. But the SYS challenge got me thinking about my dad and how much I missed our closeness of decades ago.
I went to a stationary store and bought some beautiful paper. And then I stared at it for about two weeks. Finally, I put pen to paper and poured my heart out. About how much I missed our old times and how much I loved him and knew he was a good man and a good father.
His response was beautiful. He was as ready as I was to drop the baggage and reconnect in a deep way. I’ve spoken to a few close friends about this experience and have been asked just how I made the shift and tapped back into old feelings of love and warmth that had admittedly been dormant for some time. I’m not sure how else to describe it but to say that I literally felt a softening in my heart. I made a decision to shed some of the emotional garbage I was holding on to and to just be open to the possibility of connection.
Is there somewhere in your life you can lean into this sense of softening, of letting go and being able to receive? I’d love to hear about it.